When You Don't Get Closure - Life as Mrs. Wilson

25 May, 2017

When You Don't Get Closure

I don't know what I did wrong, and that's the hardest part. I lost one of my best friends and I don't know why, and I probably won't ever know why. I'm learning that sometimes you won't get the closure you want from an ending relationship or friendship. Knowing that you are just going to have to live with that and move forward can be heartbreaking, and I think that's where faith comes in. 

To have the faith that things will work out for your better good and that God or the universe or whatever higher power you happen to believe in - well, to have faith that they don't want you to fail - is everything. They don't want you to be sad. In fact, they want you to have joy. So much joy! This higher power wants you to live out the measure of your creation and to live the fullest life you can. This simply cannot be done when you are hindering yourself from moving forward. 

I believe that there are times and reasons for all things in our lives and that we can choose to let them define us in a negative way or we can search for the good in our situations and try to become better because of it. 

To feel abandoned and not understand the reason for it can be devastating. And it absolutely crushed me when I felt that way. Those feelings of rejection still creep up on me at times and I begin to over analyze every minor detail until I've completely picked myself apart and thought over every possible thing that could be wrong with me. So often though, our losses aren't about us at all. And even when they are, moving forward without closure can sometimes be a necessary thing to do. 

It hurts and it's hard and you may never get the answers you want, or any answers at all. And I suppose that's just a part of life that I'm going to have to continue to figure out how to navigate. 

But the thing is, we are never truly abandoned.

We have this higher power that cares for us - and deeply. We can find comfort in the truth that we will never be left alone in our sorrows. With patience and diligence and love, we can be at peace even when the closure we seek never comes. 

There will be times in each of our lives that we feel discouraged and downtrodden and forgotten. Know that you are not forgotten. Know that you are loved and know that things will all work out. 

I've come to realize that while some things in life don't go the way we hope they will, happiness is never too far out of reach. We can move forward with our lives and find peace in doing so. 

So to the friendship I don't think I'll ever get closure about ending - I love you, I still care about you, I am cheering you on in life and will continue to cheer you on even if you never know or care about that. I hope for all the success and happiness in your life, even if I'm not a part of it.