Remember Your Life is Wonderful - Life as Mrs. Wilson

06 August, 2017

Remember Your Life is Wonderful

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About a month ago, something I was told was to "remember your life is wonderful." It wasn't what I expected to hear, or even what I wanted to hear. Remember my life is wonderful? Please, my life is a nightmare right now. I was exhausted, depressed, and sick of the life I had. I was tired of the mundane, ready for a change. At first I thought that I needed a vacation, but ultimately realized that what I really needed was a change of heart. 

I've always been the type of person that felt the need for solid schedules and things going exactly as planned - which has caused a lot of unneeded stress in my life. Structure was my safety net and I held on to it dearly. A while ago I noticed myself getting agitated if my baby didn't go down for a nap at exactly the same time every day, which seems pretty ridiculous now that I look back on it, but I just craved structure and schedule so much that if things didn't go according to plan, it stressed me out - big time.

So two weeks ago, I chose to let it go. Which certainly doesn't mean I'm an expert at living in the moment and am magically healed of my perfectionistic ways, but my goodness life sure feels a lot different these days - and in the best way possible.

I decided that it was okay to just sit down with my baby and let him guide what we did for the day. That we would play when and where he wanted, and that when he started to rub his cute little eyes, that meant it was nap time - whether my clock said so or not.

I decided to start smiling in pictures again and stop worrying about how my bells palsy has altered my smile and eyes. 

I decided to embrace life for what it is now rather than wait for a better future to come my way.

It's been two weeks since I made the decision to let go of structure and hold on to happiness, and what a world of a difference it's made in my life already.

It's just, I had lost all the fun in life and was left frustrated wondering why I wasn't enjoying my days. Obviously there are a lot of factors besides my struggles with wanting everything just right, but I started seeing the joy and embracing the fun and letting go of rigid bedtimes and schedules and just..lived

I started listening to music in the mornings, loud. I let Conrad splash in the puddles and eat some dirt. And I started to feel that happiness and spontaneity that I was missing.

I started to remember that you don't need more to have fun. Quite frankly, I think less is the secret to more happiness. I didn't need more money, more sleep, or more whatever. I just needed to change my perspective and focus on what was right in front of me. As I write this, my husband is chasing our son around the living room, both of them giggling louder and louder. Before, I would've been focused on the mess that I'd be cleaning later, the headache I currently have, and the endless to-do list that I could be doing instead of sitting here watching them play. But today, instead, wow this feels wonderful. The two most important people in my life are laughing and it's music to my ears. I'm chasing slow and growing to love the simplicity of my life. 

Less worry, less stress, less structure. 

It's been two of the best weeks of my life, and I don't see that stopping any time soon. I'm finally remembering that right now, where I am, my life is wonderful. 

I hate that I forgot that. That I completely lost sight of how wonderful now is. 

So whatever your life may look like right now, remember it is wonderful. It is wonderful in ways you may not see unless you are actively searching for it. Slow down, enjoy today. The mess can wait, naptime will come sooner or later. Please, if there's anything you remember today, remember your life is wonderful.

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